He said to me
" Terbaca dalam forum ni, satu ayat yang menarik. Katanya, apabila isteri menangis di depan kita, peganglah tangannya, nescaya dia akan terus setia pada kita."
I read a statement in a forum, a very interesting one saying, hold your wife hand when she's crying in front of you. She will faithful to you and never leave your side.
I was touched. He kept saying how lucky he was to find me...hmm.... How I wish I can believe that 120%... How I wish I have confidence about me being a good wife and mother. How I wish I can be a good daughter and sister, How I wish I can be a good friend and human. Most importantly, how I wish I can be a good servant to HIM....
In reality, I am just a normal lady who has up and down in sense of psychical, psychology and mental...Why? cause just yesterday I had my hysterical time (which become my routine on Sunday night almost every week)...I felt so down, headache, so trapped, everything so la..... and the most frustrated one was he just said but no action...HE'S NOT HOLDING MY HAND!!!.... and recently I started to wonder, am I become nuisance, am I become pitiful....even asking on please hold my hand become such a major heartbreak when nobody response to it? Are the words only to be said but seldom be followed?
Both of us are working hard so there are less time for us to do household...in my very naive mind, I though since both of us are working, we're also share the household chores... I am not very good in cooking and house chores, but I'm striving to make a living out of my limitation. sometimes, I hinted of my frustration by being ignorance since I am never good in asking things.... but my hints totally unnoticeable :(. The ego of the MAN.... if only once a while u admit your limitations.
Now I reached to the point, I am only good for money. People I love only value me for money. They need me because I have money to give...What happen if I resign from my work and become stay at home mom? How I wish I can do that now. So, am I totally become pitiful?
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